I am in deep love with China. It is the place think of every day. When I think far away, I think China. It is the only foreign country I have been to. My family knew my greatest desire was to go to China this summer. However, it wasn't working, which frustrated me. Show Hope deadlines were over, and at inconvenient times. They were the organization I wanted to go with. So I was really upset as I came to realize that was not going to be a possibility.
Thursday I was redirected. A missions trip to Haiti.
What? God I don't even know where Haiti is.
It was not what I wanted. It was not my China. My immediate thought was no.
I dug my heels in. I wanted China, and only China.
But God took a shovel and removed the dirt. Suddenly I changed.
What's wrong with Haiti? Orphans are orphans, not matter where they are from.
My frustration turned to excitement and joy. I wanted to go so incredibly much. I couldn't stop thinking about it. It was everything on my mind. I couldn't sleep.
I couldn't get my mind off these precious faces.
If I go...
I'd be there for one week.
I would be helping with a VBS at a local Orphanage.
Spending time with the least of these.
You know how it works. After the happy moments, dark clouds overshadows my hopes.
What could you possibly do in Haiti?
You have no funds to take a trip like that.
Haiti will be nothing like China.
You're not strong enough for anything like this.
I have no answers. I have no idea what I could do in Haiti. I have absolutely no money. I am probably not strong enough. But I am nothing by myself. It's God.
But when I fix my mind on all that you are
Then every doubt I feel deep in my heart
Grows strangely dim
All my worries fade and fall to the ground
Cause' when I seek your face and don't look around
Any place I'm in grows strangely dim.