Tuesday, August 7, 2012


I've changed.
Anyone can see that.
But really, It's not just on the outside. I'm changed on the inside.
Big time.
I think anyone would be different after a trip across the earth.
But now it's SO clear.
Before it was just a feeling, a hope.
It's more now.

I knew Orphans were such a huge part of my life.
It started as a poke, then a bump, a shove.
Now I'm sitting on the floor.

Spending time at the Hallers, New Hope, and Shepherd's Field has shaken me.
After seeing, and holding, and loving these precious children... I have lost alot of selfishness.
Cause no matter what I go through, it will never be as hard as what they go through.

Each and every one of those children. Are SO beautiful and precious.
But a majority I people only see a face.
I see their hearts.
It's in their eyes.
If you look, you truly look, deep in their eyes you can hear their hearts saying:

Hold me,
Love me,
Feed me,
Save me.

change 5
Have I every been abandoned?
Have I ever been treated like dirt?
Have I never been loved?

change 6(correct)
I know I'll be back.
I just feel it.
China's my destiny, my calling, my future.


Lauren said...

I would like to go to China sometime, but maybe not for two weeks :) It would be pretty expensive to go there...all of us, and I don't want to be away from my family!

Shelby said...

AWESOME post. This is so true for me too. Although I've never been, I know I will someday.

Ruthie said...

I know! Me too! I love it there. Every time we go, I love it more and more! Maybe one day we can go together? ;)

Joy ~ Doodlebug ~ said...

Oh, Emma, this is EXACTLY how I felt when we got back from China in 2010. I totally get this. I can't wait to go back!

God bless you!
Joy :)

Emma said...

That would be SO much fun to go together! Who knows!?

Mandy said...

Beautiful and powerful!

Love you,