Changed..

I've changed.

Anyone can see that.

But really, It's not just on the outside. I'm changed on the inside.

Big time.

I think anyone would be different after a trip across the earth.

But now it's SO clear.

Before it was just a feeling, a hope.

It's more now.

I knew Orphans were such a huge part of my life.

It started as a poke, then a bump, a shove.

Now I'm sitting on the floor.

Spending time at the Hallers, New Hope, and Shepherd's Field has shaken me.

After seeing, and holding, and loving these precious children... I have lost alot of selfishness.

Cause no matter what I go through, it will never be as hard as what they go through.

Each and every one of those children. Are SO beautiful and precious.

But a majority I people only see a face.

I see their hearts.

It's in their eyes.

If you look, you truly look, deep in their eyes you can hear their hearts saying:

Hold me,

Love me,

Feed me,

Save me.

Have I every been abandoned?

Have I ever been treated like dirt?

Have I never been loved?

I know I'll be back.
I just feel it.
China's my destiny, my calling, my future.